I haven’t seen S since the night he told me he was falling for me… I thought he could use some time away from me to get over it. It’s been about a month and a half, I think. We still text every now and again, but we haven’t had a proper chat. I’m hoping things can go back to the way they were because he’s such a lovely pal to have around. He just has to understand that I don’t fancy him in such a way nor could I ever.
I wasn’t going to answer this because I didn’t think it mattered a whole lot if I did or didn’t smoke, but I’ve received three other messages asking the same question. And although I feel like I’m being judged, I shouldn’t have to give an explanation for my doings. Obviously you know the answer to this question as the sad face implies your disapproval. But if it makes you feel any better, I haven’t smoked for nearly a month.
I wish I would too. But I get a wave of anxiety every time I post anything personal about myself. I really should get over that though as the reason I made this blog was to document bits of my life to look back on. I’ll consider updating more, but I must warn you that my life is anything but interesting. Thank you. x
Why the hell are we conditioned into the smooth strawberry-and-cream Mother-Goose-world, Alice-in-Wonderland fable, only to be broken on the wheel as we grow older and become aware of ourselves as individuals with a dull responsibility in life?
You have this one life. How do you wanna spend it? Apologizing? Regretting? Questioning? Hating yourself? Dieting? Running after people who don’t see you? Be brave. Believe in yourself. Do what feels good. Take risks. You have this one life. Make yourself proud.
Making note that life is rather good to me at the moment. So, so good! And I just want to grasp this for as long as I can because it’s been a rare thing in my life. I’m just really happy with myself and everything that’s happened these past few weeks. Ah, everything is just so wonderful! :)
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This post is going out to my best friend, imakitten, because I miss her so darn much!
You stop it right meow.